Structure and Pattern

Yesterday’s post updated you on a few things, but I don’t want to stop there.

I don’t want you to think that just because I’m busy, I’m choosing to step out of everything.

I want to be engaged in what God is doing in and through me.  Things may just look different for me right now with the kids.  I just need to make sure that I’m staying connected with what God wants.  What are God’s desires for me?  In the midst of questions of what this looks like staying at home with the kids I’m getting on the schedule to volunteer.  We don’t freeze when we try to get things together.  We keep moving.  We keep putting others’ interests above our own and ultimately God’s interests above our own.

Sometimes I can be overwhelmed with all of the unknowns right now.  I am a person that loves structure and pattern.  I can’t say that I’ve always liked that, but it’s something that I can grasp at when I am trying to take control.  Trying to control things that I cannot and should not.

Do I truly believe that God can change me?  Set me free?  Change my relationships?

I feel like sometimes I end up praying – “I believe, help my unbelief!”

I believe God can change me, set me free from controlling things.  In those moments I don’t feel like it, I pray.

Ephesians 1:15-23

Here’s a few of the verses:

18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, 19 and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength 20 he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms,


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